I am trying decide if I want to study photography with the aim of getting another BA (I have one in Theatre Studies and Music Tech already). I am looking at the Open College of the Arts and doing the level one courses.
My worries are these:
- I am not good enough to consider a degree in Photography.
- Nearly £5k is a lot of money we don't have and I am panicking I will waste it.
- I am not up to studying it and I will flake out wasting our money and my time
- My children are young and need clothes, shoes and my time etc more than I need to study.
But at the same time I feel like I am stuck watching life go by at the moment. Unable to break out and grab it. I feel like a huge "something" is missing and I don't know what. I am bored and frustrated with everything, I feel like I am living my life for other people I suppose.
ARGH! I don't know what to do, I feel like I am screaming inside but I daren't open my mouth on the outside.