I am tired of feeling "meh" and sad without being able to pin point why
I am tired of being a parent. It is utterly relentless.
I am tired of being skint
I am tired of housework
I am tired of worrying constantly
I am tired of being fat and unhealthy
I am tired of the diet I am on (only been 2 bloody days)
I am tired of not being able to find / wear clothes I like
I am tired of how I look
I am tired of not feeling good enough for anything or anyone
I am tired of just being.
Sometimes I wish I could just let everything go and just crawl into a corner and sleep for a year. I wish I could offload reponsibility, get my head in a better place and start again. I took a picture ages ago and it is still relevant:
It was taken 18 months ago. I had a GP appt a few days afterwards and I have already booked myself in for a meds review, Venlafaxine has done wonders but I have hit a major plateau which is making me feel dreadful again. I am on the top dosage a GP can prescribe though so not sure where we go from here. I guess I will find out on the 23rd (lovely doc on AL and I don't want to see another one).